Good Morning All.
Happy Father's Day to all the Dads out there. Hope it's a great one!
I miss my Dad - a lot. I'm gonna leave it at that. I really don't want to tread that path today. My mood has been really dark here lately and I don't want to add to it. So..."Dad, I miss you and I think about you all time. I love you".
So, have you missed me? :)
I've been reading (quite a bit lately) and one of the things that I've seen about blogging is to not 'apologize' for not posting. I've seen it said over and over that your readers 'don't care if you've posted or not'. I'm not sure I agree with that. I mean, if your (my) readers didn't want to know what was going on they wouldn't be reading the posts, correct? I'm just simply acknowledging that I was absent from my posts. Does anyone else feel this way? I would really like to know how you feel about this. Give me your opinions, please.
Why have I been absent? Basically because "I've been absent". I haven't felt like myself. Lately I've had this overwhelming feeling of being lost. Maybe lost is too strong....unfocused is probably closer. Don't freak out and think depression. I've been there and this isn't it. It's like being in a foggy forest. I can see the clearing but can't see the path. I've had a really difficult time staying focused on anything. Thoughts fly out of my head before I can act on them. Trains of thought are derailed before they reach their destination. Maybe it's just overload. I have so much that I want (and need) to do that I just don't know where to start. Or maybe I'm just afraid to start......ya know, I think that my be it. Just Afraid To Start. Now that I've said it out loud...I think that just may be the problem. Now how the hell do I fix it? I guess I just need to start. Hopefully the light at the end of the tunnel isn't a train.
Well, I think I'm going to leave this post at that. No pretty pictures today. No blinding words of wisdom. I just didn't want anyone to think I had abandoned them. Thanks for listening and helping me- yes you helped, more than you know - see things a bit more clearly. Some times we don't necessarily need advice, we just need someone to hold our hand so that we know we're not alone in the dark.
til next time
Ron
