Good Morning All.
Happy Father's Day to all the Dads out there. Hope it's a great one!
I miss my Dad - a lot. I'm gonna leave it at that. I really don't want to tread that path today. My mood has been really dark here lately and I don't want to add to it. So..."Dad, I miss you and I think about you all time. I love you".
So, have you missed me? :)
I've been reading (quite a bit lately) and one of the things that I've seen about blogging is to not 'apologize' for not posting. I've seen it said over and over that your readers 'don't care if you've posted or not'. I'm not sure I agree with that. I mean, if your (my) readers didn't want to know what was going on they wouldn't be reading the posts, correct? I'm just simply acknowledging that I was absent from my posts. Does anyone else feel this way? I would really like to know how you feel about this. Give me your opinions, please.
Why have I been absent? Basically because "I've been absent". I haven't felt like myself. Lately I've had this overwhelming feeling of being lost. Maybe lost is too strong....unfocused is probably closer. Don't freak out and think depression. I've been there and this isn't it. It's like being in a foggy forest. I can see the clearing but can't see the path. I've had a really difficult time staying focused on anything. Thoughts fly out of my head before I can act on them. Trains of thought are derailed before they reach their destination. Maybe it's just overload. I have so much that I want (and need) to do that I just don't know where to start. Or maybe I'm just afraid to start......ya know, I think that my be it. Just Afraid To Start. Now that I've said it out loud...I think that just may be the problem. Now how the hell do I fix it? I guess I just need to start. Hopefully the light at the end of the tunnel isn't a train.
Well, I think I'm going to leave this post at that. No pretty pictures today. No blinding words of wisdom. I just didn't want anyone to think I had abandoned them. Thanks for listening and helping me- yes you helped, more than you know - see things a bit more clearly. Some times we don't necessarily need advice, we just need someone to hold our hand so that we know we're not alone in the dark.
til next time
Ron
Hey Ron... yes I've been wondering where you went. So "Not caring" is an untruth! Well at least for some like me :)
ReplyDeleteI do completely understand what you mean about the fog and unclear path and yes sometimes you do have to force yourself to START! Been there many times, even now and it sucks because everyone around you thinks you're depressed and tries to pin that energy to you but you yourself don't feel that way. You still laugh at jokes and find humor in life you just get a little melancholy (sp?) at times and feel like you are at a stand still and don't know which way to go.
So look at your options and take a step. All will begin to flow when you do, I know and I need to follow my own advice because I've been this way for a couple of months now! lol
Hugs and many Blessings to you!
Summer
Thank you Summer! that was a big help.
Deletepeople do like to swing the "D" word around a lot.
And YES! Melancholy is a good word! :)
I wondered where you were. I think we all get in a slump once in awhile. I would say at the moment I am languishing....you know when you just can't be bothered and everything is a big effort....sigh. So today I started something that is due on Thursday. Nothing like leaving stuff to the last minute:)
ReplyDeleteTake care and come back soon:)
Languishing....
Deletethat's a good word too Mary Ann!
things have been a big effort. no 'push' here lately. working on it though.
last minute? ha, that's were I live! :)
Bother, I missed this post. A big YES to not apologising for not posting regularly. It's not homework! Don't add guilt to the blog or it just becomes a chore. It also makes any visitors feel a little awkward. I don't ever feel I need to account for not posting, unless there's an actual reason that is relevant to what's going on. I'm delighted to find someone else feels that way too.
ReplyDeleteI do apologise for not visiting people's blogs, though, so I'm sorry I haven't been here for a while. I'm sorry you've been feeling a bit blah. Unmotivated, is that a good word? Uncreative? Overwhelmed?
Do you feel any better? I don't have any real therapy to offer other than tea, long walks and the certainty that this will go. Recognising that you're in this state is probably the start of getting out of it, but that can seem a long way at the beginning.
Meanwhile, take best care of yourself and your own. Make it a duty to take care of yourself, even if you really can't be bothered.
Halloween is coming, if that's any help?
Thanks Miss B!
ReplyDeleteyes, I'm doing better. just a slump.
HALLOWEEN!!! YAY!!!
:)